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What to do with the nuts?

Monday, November 30th, 2009

As I mentioned earlier, our lives are about to change. Lloyd’s business got accepted into the program in California, and we’re about to get a whole lot more crowded in our little house. And in honor of not wanting to kill new house-mates, I’m trying to eat up all the nuts and nut-based foods that could cause serious problems if left lying around. After making the cannoli filling I had a half a can of pumpkin left over, and was also searching for a better way to dig into the peanut butter jar than just serving pb&j for dinner three times this week. I ended up finding a wonderful recipe at allrecipes.com for peanut butter pumpkin bread, and thought I might as well share it (although it was far from mediocre tasting!).

I cut the recipe in half (since I only had that half-empty can of pumpkin), and changed it up a little, so here’s my version:

Ingredients:
1/2 can pumpkin (about 8 oz)
1-1/2 cups sugar
2 eggs
1/4 cup applesauce
1/4 cup oil
1/4 cup and 2 Tablespoons water
1/3 cup peanut butter
1-3/4 cup all-purpose flour
1 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon
1/2 teaspoon ground nutmeg
1/4 teaspoon pumpkin pie spice

In a large mixing bowl, combine sugar, pumpkin, eggs, oil, water, and peanut butter. In a separate bowl, combine flour, baking soda, salt, cinnamon, nutmeg, and pie spice. Gradually add to pumpkin mixture. Mix well. Pour into greased loaf pans and bake at 350° for 50-60 minutes.

What’s mediocre about this recipe is the amount of effort you must put in—it’s very little. Emma did most of the mixing. I had originally intended to make this with at least half whole wheat flour, and then forgot to, but one day I may try it again that way (or you can try it and let me know!). If you check out the original recipe, it uses all oil, and I at least wanted to cut that down; it could probably even be made with all applesauce, but I like to tweak things in increments. Another variation I would like to try would be to sub some or all of the sugar with honey.

Also, even though the full recipe called for two loaf pans, this half recipe could easily be made into two loaves. I put it all in one, and it rose almost twice as high as the pan! At the very least, maybe make one loaf and 6 muffins or something. Mine ended up being almost burned on the outside and almost too dough-y on the inside, so I think a little less in the pan would have made it absolutely perfect. And I ended up cooking mine for less time than the recipe called for; as with all things baking, I would simply suggest checking yours for done-ness.

Maybe you’re thinking it’s a weird combination of flavors, and it kind of is, but it is seriously good. I fed it as our special treat at Joy School this morning and the kids were asking for thirds! So it’s definitely a hit with kids. And I used crunchy peanut butter, which added a little more texture to the bread and extra peanut-y goodness (for those of us who can eat peanuts, that is). I’m sure this would also be good with chocolate chips added in, too! ;)

Oh, and here’s a picture I took with my phone, but it really doesn’t do the bread justice (I had to hurry to get a picture before it was all gone, or I might have used a good camera and tried to take a pretty picture).

So yummy I may go buy another can of pumpkin. . .

So yummy I may go buy another can of pumpkin. . .

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Thanksgiving Cannoli

Friday, November 27th, 2009

The November 2009 Daring Bakers Challenge was chosen and hosted by Lisa Michele ofParsley, Sage, Desserts and Line Drives. She chose the Italian Pastry, Cannolo (Cannoli is plural), using the cookbooks Lidia’s Italian-American Kitchen by Lidia Matticchio Bastianich and The Sopranos Family Cookbook by Allen Rucker; recipes by Michelle Scicolone, as ingredient/direction guides. She added her own modifications/changes, so the recipe is not 100% verbatim from either book.

Well, this challenge was not so great for me. I probably should have picked some weekend when I’d be alone to do my cooking, but I thought it might be fun to wait and make them while my grandma was here. As it turned out, the kids were crazy the whole time and I ended up doing most of the work after Grandma was in bed or while she was playing with the kids, so we really didn’t do any of it together. Oh, well. Here’s my story anyway.

I finally started my challenge Tuesday night, around 11, after everyone except myself and the baby had gone to bed. I was planning on mixing up my dough (which needed to sit in the fridge for at least 2 hours) and filling. Surely this couldn’t take too long; after all, I had watched a video earlier of a chef making cannoli, and it only took him 5 minutes. I left III playing on the floor in the living room where I could see him, and where he was perfectly content, and I got started.

I knew I needed to drain my ricotta for the filling, so I thought I would do that while I made the dough. Upon reading a little closer, I discovered I needed to let it drain for at least an hour, so at this point I decided that I would be making the filling in the morning, and I’d be done even sooner than I thought. So I grabbed a bowl, a strainer, and my cheesecloth.

I didn't realize there was so much cheesecloth! How much are you supposed to use??

I didn't realize there was so much cheesecloth! How much are you supposed to use??

I cut some of it off and then plopped my ricotta cheese into the bowl, covered it with plastic wrap, a towel, and weighed it down with some applesauce. I thought it was a pretty funny sight in my fridge:

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So then I moved on to the dough. Things were just zipping along, and I was feeling so optimistic and excited. I kept thinking how wonderful it was to be baking late at night, and how much I am not a morning person, and how thankful I was that III was being so amiable (although I would have preferred him to be sleeping!). Anyway, the first part was easy; I mixed together all of my dry ingredients, and prepared to turn it all into a nice, soft dough.

I even enjoyed using the vinegar, which reminded me of a bottle of vodka; later, I would wish it was vodka...

I even enjoyed using the vinegar, which reminded me of a bottle of vodka; later, I would wish it was vodka...

Now, the directions said you could mix it by hand, but then it kept talking about putting it in your food processor, which I don’t have, so I kept mixing it by hand. I lightly incorporated the oil, then the vinegar, and then the wine, waiting and waiting for it to turn into the nice soft dough as directed. Then I figured it would just take me longer since I was mixing by hand, so I stirred and I stirred. Then I became impatient and thought maybe I’d try my little hand mixer to speed things up. So I brought it out, and in the little areas it managed to mix, I guess it became dough-y, but it kept clogging up the mixer:

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So then I tried dumping it all into this tiny bowl mixer, which also failed to do anything but dirty up another dish for me, so I dumped it back into my original bowl. It was still dry and crumbly, so I thought perhaps I needed more wine, and added more in tiny increments. It helped very little. Naturally, I began going back over every step I had made thus far, trying to determine where I erred. Maybe I didn’t count my oil correctly; so I added more oil. I gave up on the spoon and just started mashing the dough together, willing it to stick.

Of course, at this point III also became unhappy. He pooped his pants and had crawled into the kitchen and was sort of whining at my feet. The smell did nothing to help my mood. I had been mixing for nearly an hour and I finally gave up. I stuck my ball of elephant skin in the fridge and took care of the kid. I went to bed rather unhappy.

The ball of elephant skin

The ball of elephant skin

I had come this far, so I knew I couldn’t quit. I at least mixed together my filling the next day, making some with chocolate chips, and some with mascarpone cheese and pumpkin (just followed the original recipe; didn’t get all creative). My mood was slightly improved by the yumminess of this part—and the lack of disaster.

I proceeded to attack the dough, despite crazy kids and an increasing feeling of hopelessness as I pulled the dough from the fridge. I tore the ball in half and began beating it with my rolling pin. Some time later it started to thin, but not in a nice, smooth consistent manner. It kept cracking and pulling apart, but I was determined. Just imagine me beating and rolling, and stopping to help the kids, and then more beating and rolling until I finally got it thin enough to cut out. Repeat this process for at least an hour.

Found a lid to make my circles

Found a lid to make my circles

Finally had 8 passable pieces

Finally had 8 passable pieces

I thought they at least looked nice at this point

I thought they at least looked nice at this point

As you can see, I baked my cannoli instead of frying, simply because I didn’t want to deal with the mess and massive waste of oil. Do they seem a little purple to you? No one else’s seem to look purple, but mine did. I used red wine, but that’s what the recipe called for . . . maybe it was the extra drops I added. Anyway, I had read to put them in a 500° oven for 10 minutes, so I put them in and set the timer for 7 minutes. I was again disappointed.

My burned cannoli

My burned cannoli

The thicker ones didn’t burn as much, and were mostly edible, especially once filled. I managed (with the help of Lloyd) to roll out another 8, and only baked them for 5 minutes, which still ended up with blackened bottoms, but not as much as this first batch. They did bubble up a little, which I thought was perhaps a positive thing, but I didn’t expect them to look like the fried kind anyway. So I filled them and ate them, and was not awed, but at least I had some dessert for Thanksgiving!

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As an after-note, they still tasted a little wine-y, even after being cooked. And still have half the mound of dough in my fridge . . .

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Neighbors

Thursday, November 19th, 2009

I am so thankful for good neighbors. In the past, we’ve had good landlords, but we haven’t had the greatest of neighbors (I was always so angry with our neighbor in York who would use his truck as his stereo system—their driveway was right outside our bedroom windows). I feel like we truly are getting to be suburban (don’t know for sure if that’s a good thing); we live on a little cul-de-sac and we’re all getting to know one another.

There is only one other family near us, though, and I’m grateful they’re the type of people who introduce themselves. I’m more of a smile and wave kind of person, and I’m terrible at the getting-to-know-you small talk. But our neighbors are excellent at it. They have 2 little girls and a little boy, and one of the girls is Emma’s age (they’re the ones that got us into Joy School). I love that Emma can just walk across the street to go play. There are no long drives for pick-up and drop-off, I can leave III sleeping in his room while I watch her cross the street, and it can end at a moment’s notice. If Emma forgets something at home, she can just run back and get it. It’s amazing.

I also like that there is someone to talk to, or help out. I haven’t needed to yet, but I’m sure if I was lacking a cup of flour, I could cross the street and get one. When they were having trouble removing their license plates, Lloyd grabbed his tools and walked over to help. When she made cookies one day, they brought us over a plate. And carpooling to school is a major plus.

I could think of many other little examples, but it would all end the same way: with my gratitude.

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Random Thoughts

Tuesday, November 17th, 2009

So this week and next expect me to be a little hit-and-miss. I’m desperately trying to super-clean my house and rearrange a bunch of rooms before my grandma arrives on Monday for Thanksgiving! And then since she’ll be here I’m not sure how much posting I’ll get to. I am going to try to get my Daring Baker post up next Friday, so you can at least look forward to that. Here are some tweetish thoughts:

Personally, I think one of the more terrible forms of torture would be pulling out my fingernails. That might get me talking.

How is a ten-minute car ride enough for a nap?

I’d really like my superpower to be the ability to put anyone to sleep.

Is a pumpkin a melon? If so, then I can say “Check out my massive melon:”

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I found it hidden under the leaves. Didn’t even see it start growing. This was last week. Today it’s roughly the size of III’s torso. Pretty exciting.

My other pumpkin died:

This is about the 6th little pumpkin to end up like this

This is about the 6th little pumpkin to end up like this

I may have enough tomatoes for a whole salad! They’re getting to be pretty large for cherry tomatoes:

Approaching ping-pong ball size. This is one of many.

Approaching ping-pong ball size. This is one of many.

Waiting for the tomatoes to turn red is akin to waiting for labor to begin, with the added bonus of a painless and yummy end result.

The weatherman’s tweets today were obsessed with how cold it got last night—I think the average was around 30°. Still haven’t turned my heat on. Used the A/C though.

Bought a 13-pound turkey for $3.51. That’s something to be thankful for!

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Milestone Mania

Monday, November 16th, 2009

I am one of those moms who is constantly comparing. I can’t seem to help it. With Emma I was so paranoid that she wasn’t doing anything faster than her peers. It was like my value as a mother depended upon her beating another kid to a milestone. As it turns out, this is a bad thing for me to feel competitive in; mostly because you can’t control it, and also because my kids tend to run below the curve.

No matter how many articles I read on not worrying about your kid’s milestones, and how we need to stop the pressure and stop comparing our kids, I still do it. With Emma it’s how well she can dance, or write her letters, or sing, or whatever. And usually I’m feeling like she’s behind. Large motor skills have never really been her thing. But even though she was walking months after all her friends, she still ended up walking, and at the age of 3, she’s doing fine.

With III I’ve been a little a better at not feeling so uptight about the comparing game. I think what makes it difficult is that the major topic of discussion when you have a kid is, “Is your kid doing _____?” Has Emma started school yet? Does she know her alphabet? Is little Lloyd crawling yet? Does he have any teeth? It is extremely difficult not to compare your kid when you’re constantly being asked what new stunt he can do. My kids are healthy, and that should be enough.

But it never is. So I am pleased to announce III’s new skill: crawling! That’s right, he can now crawl, which is something Emma never did. He was inspired by a nearby laptop, and I caught it on the camera. I have it up on Facebook, but I’m still working through some technical difficulties to get it on here as well.

And because I was interested in at least comparing my own kids to each other, here are some pics of Emma at the same age (and still un-mobile).

Lovin' the baby food

Lovin' the baby food

She still makes this face today--only with more teeth!

She still makes this face today--only with more teeth!

Just weird, but happy

Just weird, but happy

So even in comparing the two of them there are differences. He’s much bigger, has many more teeth (she barely had her bottom two!), and is figuring out how to move around. But she was much more developed at picking things up, at talking, and she had a lot more hair.  I guess every kid is different, and it really won’t matter in 20 years. It’s not like I sit around with my friends saying, “Yeah, but I walked before you did, so there!” Of course, that probably wouldn’t be true either. I was a late walker . . . just like my kids!

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Happy Birthday, Zazz!

Thursday, November 12th, 2009

Today my wonderful sister-in-law celebrated the day of her birth, and in honor of that occasion, I am using today to say how thankful I am for her. I really could not have asked for a better sister. Sure, we’ve  had our differences, but I was pregnant and she was really messy, so I think I’m entitled. ;) Really, I’d say because of the whole experience of having her live with us for a year while I was pregnant with Emma probably made us more like real sisters than just the Thanksgiving and Christmas visits. You really can’t reach a deep level of love for someone until you realize how much you can really hate them (okay, hate might be a little strong, but dislike seems a little weak for the antithesis of love, as does annoyance, so I’m sticking with hate). Now I don’t think this necessarily means you have to hate someone to love them more—just be aware that the capacity exists.

I think the whole love/hate level is why the parent/child relationship forms such a strong bond. Parents love their babies more than they’ve ever loved anything before, but after a 3-hour crying spree at 4 in the morning, a parent comes to realize how much anti-love is possible, while at the same time remaining entirely in love with the screaming demon. Trust me on this one. And no matter how much a child claims to hate the parent, there is still a well of love available—that hopefulness that wants to believe that nothing bad can be true of one’s parents. But I diverge.

Jasmine. I am proud to have you as my sister. You’re pretty cool, and now that we’ve both grown up a little more, I respect you. You’re a wonderful auntie to my sweeties, a loving sister to my husband, and a great friend to me (I mean, who else would buy me Guitar Hero?? You rock!). I am thankful that you are in my life, that you are honest with me, and that you’re tactful when telling me what a dork I am. I am not really sorry for scarring you with my childbirths, and I know for the right guy you will be able to overcome the memories.

Hope you had a splendid birthday. Sorry I couldn’t be there to make you a cake. Here’s a picture of one someone else made:

16th Birthday iTouch Cake by April Julian.

Looks pretty sweet, huh? Happy Birthday!

(For those of you unawares of Emma’s speech patterns, the letter J usually ends up coming out as a Z, therefore Jazz=Zazz; it’s not a typo.)

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Life Block

Wednesday, November 11th, 2009

I don’t think I’m having writer’s block; I think I’m having a life block. Right now there is nothing new. I haven’t tried any new recipes, crazy diets, new schedule, new activities—nothing. Right now I’m ok with that, because life is about to reach a whole new level of crazy. So I’m treating today as a simple update for those of you who care about knowing personally about our family. I always said I didn’t want to turn this blog into a “what we’re doing,” and I maintain that (after all, that’s what Facebook’s for, right?). But for today I’m sharing where we’re potentially headed, and how I feel about all of it.

We’re headed down a path of the entrepreneurial-type. For months, Lloyd has been working with his friend on a new project; a project that is intended to one day catapult us into the life of those who can hire a housekeeper. And it’s becoming real now. Last week we learned that they have been invited to an interview for a venture firm that specializes in funding start-ups (particularly web-based ones). Next week is the interview, and I’m pretty confident they’ll be persuasive enough to be accepted, which means a 3-month stint in California.

Now, his partner and wife were already planning to move here for the sake of business paperwork, and because they may only be here for a few weeks before the boys ship out to Cali, they’ll be living with us for a little bit. And then the wives will be together to keep each other company for the three months. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t feel a little bit hesitant about the whole ordeal. I think it’s wonderful for the business, and I’m trying to not worry so much about the fact that Lloyd would be quitting his job and if the business doesn’t succeed, neither do we (and really, I am quite confident it will succeed).

But we all know how hard it is to have a roommate. Even the best of friendships can be ruined. Of course, maybe that’s just girls. Or A-type personalities. Or maybe just me. Not that I’ve had a friendship ruined, but maybe a little strained. Especially in small spaces. But the adventurous part of me is up for the challenge. And I’m not the one uprooting my whole life to live in my friend’s house (sounds familiar, though), so I can’t even imagine how they’re feeling about the whole ordeal. And Minnesota to Texas is going to be quite a culture change (just to warn you, J & R—Dan says it feels like another foreign country).

Also, we’ll be adding a dog to the mix, and a bird, and a whole lot of food allergies (I’m eating my marzipan as fast as possible!). Emma freaks out around dogs, so it might be good for her to have to deal with that, and I’m always up for a good food challenge (especially if I’ve got help). And I’m pretty sure we’re going to force them to play nerdy games with us every night, so that’s going to be fun. It will be an interesting living experiment (maybe I should film it and make some lame reality tv show wherein I make lots of money), and I’m sure I’ll have many new things to write about!

So that’s where we’re headed: 4 adults, 2 kids, 1 dog, 1 bird, 1 house, and an overload of computers. It’ll be a Texas-sized adventure that you won’t want to miss! Tune in Wednesday nights this winter.

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Q & A with Emma

Tuesday, November 10th, 2009

What’s the hardest thing about being a kid?

“The hardest thing is when you’re being a big sister, because I’m having little brothers going crazy around in my face.”

What would you like to be when you grow up, and why?

“I want to be a mommy, because I want to have a kid.”

What is the scariest thing in the world?

“When all the lights are turned off.”

What makes you the happiest?

“Playing with Lily, because she goes really fast on swings.”

What would you do with a million dollars?

“I would buy stuff. Like a toy.”

If you could only eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?

“Meatballs.”

Would you rather be smart or beautiful? Why?

“Beautiful. Because I love you, and you say I’m beautiful.”

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Paralysis

Monday, November 9th, 2009

I’m a bit of an A-type personality, and have issues with beginning things if I don’t think they can be done properly. Many afternoons, I breathe a sigh of relief as I lay III down and his eyes stay closed, and then I retreat to the living room and just sit. I get stuck in this paralysis of not knowing what to do next. There’s so much to be done, how do I decide where to begin? I should do dishes, but what if the noise wakes him up? I could do laundry, but in order to feel comfortable folding it on the floor, I’d need to vacuum first, which also might wake him up. I could clean the bathroom, but if he wakes up in the middle of my cleaning, then I won’t get to finish. I also want to rearrange my closet, and I’m in the process of moving my work area from our bedroom to the built-in desk in the hallway (which Lloyd vacated to move his work space into the garage).

So I sit. And I think about all the things I should be doing, but am afraid to start because I know I can’t finish them before he wakes up. Usually, I end up deciding I deserve a snack break or something, and I watch some tv on hulu. Then my previous arguments for why I can’t begin anything become even more pertinent, as it’s now been an hour since he fell asleep, so the chance of him waking up increases.

I’ve really got to get over this all-or-nothing attitude. So today I made an effort. I watched one short episode of 30 Rock while eating my lunch, and I dove into the pile of papers and receipts that were on the desk. I got to work for about an hour, and managed to get a few things organized. I went through some boxes in the living room that I wanted to move into my “office,” but didn’t quite finish, so now my living room is a bit of a mess, and my computer is still in the bedroom, but I made some progress. I didn’t waste my afternoon.

Most times, a little bit of effort is still better than no effort at all. I’m not magically going to have 8 hours of time to myself with no children and a strong drive to organize and clean my entire house (although if anyone wants to come babysit…), so it’s useless to sit around waiting for the perfect time to do things. With kids around, the perfect time is all the time. Being a mom means learning to juggle—find the moments when one kid is entertaining the other and you can sneak into the next room for even 15 minutes to wash a few pans (although I’m pretty sure the best way to keep a kitchen clean is by cleaning up after each meal, but I lose all motivation to clean after cooking). This ADD-style approach to cleaning (ADHD, whatever) is really obnoxious, and difficult to get used to, but I guess it’s all just part of the parenting territory.

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The Sunday Blues

Friday, November 6th, 2009

Going to church with children is like a chore. When they’re tiny, they usually sleep the whole time, but the new parent is so worried about neglecting the little narcoleptic that he/she spends the entire time looking at the baby, or rearranging the blankets on the baby, or adjusting the cute little outfit so that baby looks perfect for all the after-service gawkers. Then baby gets bigger and Mom spends the entire time feeding the baby in the nursery, and once the kid can last through the morning without eating, he’s usually discovered that he has a voice which is really fun to use. So then the parent either spends the entire time shushing and entertaining the baby, while trying to ignore all the heads that keep turning around (really? It’s a baby. Did you really have to turn around to confirm that?), or spends the time walking around the foyer, pointing out the sparkles in the bulletin board for the hundred-millionth time. One can be left wondering, Why do I bother?

In case you hadn’t caught on, this is all from first-hand experience. We’ve reached the stage where I can be present for the singing because III is either entertained, or can’t be heard beyond the people immediately around us, but as soon as things quiet down and I want him to sit on my lap, he starts wiggling, or grunting (he is quite the grunter; it’s his only form of communication), and then eventually crying. So I get up and play with him for a while in the “Crying Room,” which really needs to be wired for sound because all I hear is a muffled sermon, and that’s only when III takes a breath to wind up for more grunting. When he gets mad there I move on out by the front doors and just walk around with him until church is over. We get to visit with all the men heading to and from the bathroom (seriously, it’s the same ones every week, and it’s never women—what’s up with that?), and by the end he’s getting really cranky and screams loud enough to be heard in the auditorium anyway.

So I wonder some days why we go. It’s not like we’re getting much enrichment out of the lessons (well, maybe Lloyd is), and we don’t get much fellowshipping in because we leave so we can get crabby-pants fed and in bed. But we also recently started sending Emma to the children’s church during the sermon, and she really enjoys it. This is another topic I’m not so sure about. I like the idea of children learning to sit quietly, and Emma does pretty well, so I don’t think it’s asking too much. But there is also one less child to pay attention to when she goes to children’s church, which is an incentive from the parent-perspective. And I guess it depends what they’re doing. Emma comes back telling Bible stories and singing songs that I remember singing as a kid, so I feel comfortable that she’s still learning joy in the Lord. If it was just play time, I would definitely keep Emma with us. That’s just me.

Anyway, Emma getting the experience is a large part of why I decide to still get us out the door Sunday mornings. When I say experience I don’t mean just the chance to be entertained, but the idea that we put aside a day that is for worship, even if it ends up being obnoxious babysitting. The experience of meeting together with people, and seeing that we sit still and respect what is going on around us. Seeing other people pray, and instilling a level of comfort in communicating with God. Honestly, some days it is only the desire to teach my daughter that makes me want to go. When there is a little baby involved, it is difficult to feel driven by faith. It stresses me out. Not that faith is about feeling (I’m getting all muddled up here, and I don’t want to be writing forever, so please forgive me, but I don’t have time to hit a ton of theological points), but I mean that showing up to walk around with my kid does not feel like worship, and does not fill me with desire to return.

And then I think maybe I’ll just skip once. Just one little time. And it’s not so much that I feel guilty about that (I don’t think we should go to church out of guilt), but a bit of sadness, or fear. I know I could just sleep in and skip all the drama, and Emma might not know the difference since she really doesn’t understand days of the week yet, but I think it’s a slippery slope. I already make so many concessions that I’m not proud of, and I would like to change, and I know if I open that door to absence, then there will truly be an absence in my life. It’s hard some Sundays. Really hard. A bit depressing. Some days I don’t get to talk to anyone except the “Oh, my, his hair just keeps getting redder” conversation (really, I think I understand why redheads have a temper). But I’m not going to give up, and if you have kids, or have some other form of the Sunday blues, then please don’t give up either. If our biggest obstacle in worship is cranky kids, or we still don’t feel entirely plugged in to a new church family (I’m learning this bit is hard, too), then I think we’re still pretty blessed, and we shouldn’t take that for granted.

“It’s just not worth it” is totally a lie. It may not feel worth it, but it’s not all about feelings. And I’m sorry to get all preach-y here, but this is part of my life, too. Part of what I’m figuring out—part of the crazy balance of motherhood. I don’t always get it right day-to-day. I’m not really that good at showing Jesus in the daily grind, but I can keep showing up, and not giving up, because lifestyles are formed by habits, and habits are formed by actions. This is an action I can take. Even when mixed with the blues.

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